In my last post, my long, long, long one (lol) I had a lot I wanted to clarify when giving my latest update, etc...well my closest, dearest friend pointed out to me that I've been sounding like I am being a bit defensive, over-explaining some things like my being married twice, etc. & she"s right. As much as I know God has forgiven me, as much as He is now the center of and head of my life there is obviously a part of me that still holds internal guilt over things I cannot change from my past. In one of my recent devotionals I read in Scripture a warning, if you will, that the enemy can & will use anythng and everything to decieve us and pull us from God and from God's purposes for our lives including, of course, our own selves. Thankfully God not only warns us of the enemy's tactics, He gives us the ways to fight these battles and reminds us that victory has already been had, the battle has already been won ~ no matter what our journey has been or will be, there is no condemnation in Christ, our guilt and shame has been washed away by His Blood and we are spotless in His sight. Praise the Lord!
I also mentioned in my last post that I have no desire to marry again ~ I have found that statement to be untrue ~ & yes, I'm aware it was my own statement. I want a lot of things for my future and a true, Godly covenant marriage would be one of those things; however the biggest desire of my heart is to be a Godly woman and obedient to Him and if it's in His plan for me to marry or it isn't I accept it either way for it's His will I desire only. What could be better than that? Only someday being in His presence I am sure ~ God bless!